Tuesday, September 28, 2010

ODE TO AUTUMN - JOHN KEATS

Steven Walker told me once that John Keats will be the Poet Laurette of the Celestial Kingdom.

Ode to Autumn

Season of mists and mellow fruitfulness!
Close bosom-friend of the maturing sun;
Conspiring with him how to load and bless
With fruit the vines that round the thatch-eaves run;
To bend with apples the mossed cottage-trees,
And fill all fruit with ripeness to the core;
To swell the gourd, and plump the hazel shells
With a sweet kernel; to set budding more,
And still more, later flowers for the bees,
Until they think warm days will never cease,
For Summer has o'erbrimmed their clammy cells.

Who hath not seen thee oft amid thy store?
Sometimes whoever seeks abroad may find
Thee sitting careless on a granary floor,
Thy hair soft-lifted by the winnowing wind;
Or on a half-reaped furrow sound asleep,
Drowsed with the fume of poppies, while thy hook
Spares the next swath and all its twined flowers;
And sometimes like a gleaner thou dost keep
Steady thy laden head across a brook;
Or by a cider-press, with patient look,
Thou watchest the last oozings, hours by hours.

Where are the songs of Spring? Ay, where are they?
Think not of them, thou hast thy music too, -
While barred clouds bloom the soft-dying day
And touch the stubble-plains with rosy hue;
Then in a wailful choir the small gnats mourn
Among the river sallows, borne aloft
Or sinking as the light wind lives or dies;
And full-grown lambs loud bleat from hilly bourn;
Hedge-crickets sing, and now with treble soft
The redbreast whistles from a garden-croft;
And gathering swallows twitter in the skies. 

-John Keats 1795-1821

Friday, September 10, 2010

THE WASTE LAND - T.S. ELIOT

T.S. Eliot's "The Waste Land" is argued by some to be the greatest work of all modernist literature and is also one of my favorite poems. Despite the work's rigorous obscurity, allusions, and use of juxtaposition and satire, to me the poem's true strength is found in that of illustrating the struggle in finding meaning in a dramatically changed and unstable modern world, and Eliot's hinting that depending on the arts and great literature of the past presents some stability as the world continually ventures into an unforeseen future. Packed with allusions to many famous literary pieces and authors that I have grown to love (Shakespeare's The Tempest and Hamlet; Dante's Inferno; Virgil's The Aneid; Keats; Marvell; Dickens; Thomas Middleton; and St. Augustine) "The Waste Land" has also come to symbolize to me a representation of the creative force of imagination, history, and language, understood by some, and appreciated by few. Some of the symbols in the poem that stand out to me are rivers, the human psyche, regeneration of life, music, death, gender roles, great cities, myths/legends, and war. I too believe beauty is found in chaos, instability, and an underlying power, sometimes hard to see, and greater than ourselves. Time allows for the healing of great devastation. Despite the ever changing failures of modern society, peace is found in the words, symbols, and rhetoric of the past fabricating a lattice of hope for the imaginative power of the future - however grim or gloomy things may appear to be. A "peace which passeth understanding" is to be found in this feeble world, creating art in the face of madness.

APRIL is the cruellest month, breeding   
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing   
Memory and desire, stirring   
Dull roots with spring rain.   
Winter kept us warm, covering           
Earth in forgetful snow, feeding   
A little life with dried tubers....

...There is shadow under this red rock,   
(Come in under the shadow of this red rock),   
And I will show you something different from either   
Your shadow at morning striding behind you   
Or your shadow at evening rising to meet you;   
I will show you fear in a handful of dust...     

...Unreal City,   
Under the brown fog of a winter dawn,   
A crowd flowed over London Bridge, so many,   
I had not thought death had undone so many.   
Sighs, short and infrequent, were exhaled,   
And each man fixed his eyes before his feet...
                   
...THE river's tent is broken: the last fingers of leaf   
Clutch and sink into the wet bank. The wind   
Crosses the brown land, unheard. The nymphs are departed.   
Sweet Thames, run softly, till I end my song.   
The river bears no empty bottles, sandwich papers,   
Silk handkerchiefs, cardboard boxes, cigarette ends   
Or other testimony of summer nights. The nymphs are departed.   
And their friends, the loitering heirs of city directors;   
Departed, have left no addresses...

     ...The river sweats   
      Oil and tar   
      The barges drift   
      With the turning tide   
      Red sails   
      Wide   
      To leeward, swing on the heavy spar.   
      The barges wash   
      Drifting logs   
      Down Greenwich reach   
      Past the Isle of Dogs.   
            Weialala leia   
            Wallala leialal...

...O you who turn the wheel and look to windward,   
Consider Phlebas, who was once handsome and tall as you...                  

  ...And no rock   
  If there were rock   
  And also water   
  And water   
  A spring   
  A pool among the rock   
  If there were the sound of water only   
  Not the cicada   
  And dry grass singing   
  But sound of water over a rock   
  Where the hermit-thrush sings in the pine trees   
  Drip drop drip drop drop drop drop   
  But there is no water...

...Ganga was sunken, and the limp leaves   
Waited for rain, while the black clouds   
Gathered far distant, over Himavant.   
The jungle crouched, humped in silence.   
Then spoke the thunder   
D A   
Datta: what have we given?   
My friend, blood shaking my heart   
The awful daring of a moment's surrender   
Which an age of prudence can never retract   
By this, and this only, we have existed   
Which is not to be found in our obituaries   
Or in memories draped by the beneficent spider   
Or under seals broken by the lean solicitor   
In our empty rooms   
D A   
Dayadhvam: I have heard the key   
Turn in the door once and turn once only   
We think of the key, each in his prison   
Thinking of the key, each confirms a prison   
Only at nightfall, aetherial rumours   
Revive for a moment a broken Coriolanus   
D A   
Damyata: The boat responded   
Gaily, to the hand expert with sail and oar   
The sea was calm, your heart would have responded   
Gaily, when invited, beating obedient   
To controlling hands   

                      I sat upon the shore   
Fishing, with the arid plain behind me   
Shall I at least set my lands in order?   

London Bridge is falling down falling down falling down   

Poi s'ascose nel foco che gli affina   
Quando fiam ceu chelidon—O swallow swallow   
Le Prince d'Aquitaine à la tour abolie   
These fragments I have shored against my ruins   
Why then Ile fit you. Hieronymo's mad againe.   
Datta. Dayadhvam. Damyata.   

            Shantih shantih shantih











































Monday, August 30, 2010

THE INNER LIFE OF THE CELL

The human body is amazing. I am fascinated by all the details, principles, and laws of science that are followed that make life possible. There are so many tiny pathways and processes that all work exactly and are kept in perfect balance. Its amazing what we have discovered and have been able to learn in science about our own bodies. In my physiology class we have started back at the beginning with the basic unit of life, the cell.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

GREAT QUOTE - THEODORE ROOSEVELT

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, and comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcomings; but who does actuallly strive to do the deeds; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least [he] fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat.”

-Theodore Roosevelt, “Citizen in a Republic” (address delivered at the Sorbonne, Paris, France, Apr. 23, 1910), Presidential Addresses and State Papers and European Addresses, December 8, 1908, to June 7, 1910, vol. 8 of Presidential Addresses and State Papers, Homeward Bound ed. (1910), 2191.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

FUTURE DENTAL CLINIC SITE

Someday I am going to build a dental clinic here. People will trade me coconuts, fresh mangoes, and roasted pig for fillings, crowns, and extractions. Afternoons you'll find me at the beach adding to my shell collection, snorkeling with my children that speak Tongan and climb coconut trees. Nights reading next to a smoking umu drinking fresh otai. Saturdays at Teufaiva Stadium, watching rugby, and eating peanuts. Long weekends I will visit Ha'apai and Vava'u with my beautiful wife. And on Sundays I'll rest and grow wise.


Saturday, July 31, 2010

SAVING SOUTHERN CROSSES


Looking up at a foreign sky between palm leaves,
I find a closeness I didn't imagine here.
My world has not moved, but I have literally turned myself upside down.
And not see the stars on the opposite side.
I hear the flatness of an island surrounded by coral.
I taste the smoke of an umu and
fall in love with a lazy Tongan Sunday afternoon. 
I smell green everywhere and a constant mist of the blowholes.
The repetition of the waves will continue when I'm gone.
I hear church choirs sing in harmonies not written in the book.
I learn food lasts today only and people are worth more than things.
A mother pig walks across the road
as I'm dodging potholes, learning to drive on the other side.
My fears of the future are smashed between two rugby players and
drowned with loud laughter.
I find new freedom and direction
hitch-hiking in the back of old trucks,
feeling the wind and real life.
Staring at a perfect sunset I find my humanity:
hoping to keep a moment forever - I know won't last outside my head much longer.
I've climbed higher than a coconut tree
and seen the depths of the blue ocean.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

THE HOLY GHOST

I have thought a lot lately about what a wonderful gift the Holy Ghost is in our lives. As we are worthy, obedient, and doing our best to keep the commandments and do our Father's will, we are promised that the Holy Ghost, a member of the Godhead, will be with us through all that we do. What a comfort it is to know that we will never be left alone. We will always have The Spirit with us to help us make decisions, protect us from danger, and comfort us. 

I have tried this Summer to focus more on truly listening to the Spirit, finding quiet time to think about what Heavenly Father would have me do, and responding to those promptings. I have learned that the Holy Ghost can be as much involved in our lives as we let Him. As we follow promptings to serve and to act, our confidence in the Spirit, as well as our own ability to receive personal revelation both grow and we are able to receive further instruction. Interestingly we also learn humility in learning our need for depending on the Spirit and seeking what The Lord would have us do - instead of our own desires. It is humblingly to know how big a part of our lives The God of all the Universe wants to be in our individual lives. I have a long ways to go with learning to recognize and following the Spirit, but I know what Sister Beck said last conference is true,The ability to qualify for, receive, and act on personal revelation is the single most important skill that can be acquired in this life.

I'm grateful for the Gift of the Holy Ghost in my life and hope to show my gratitude by heading its promptings and learning to better receive and act on personal revelation.

For behold, again I say unto you that if ye will enter
in by the way, and receive the Holy Ghost, it will show unto you all
things what ye should do. (2 Nephi 32:5)

Neither is man capable to make them known, for they
are only to be seen and understood by the power of the Holy
Spirit, which God bestows on those who love him, and purify
themselves before him. (Doctrine & Covenants 76:116)

For what man knoweth the things of a man, save the spirit
of man which is in him? even so the things of God
knoweth no man, but the Spirit of God. (1 Corinthians 2:11)

And whoso having faith you shall confirm in my church,
by the laying on of the hands, and I will bestow the gift of
the Holy Ghost upon them. (Doctrine & Covenants 33:15)